Case off guard

I seldom talk about cases reported in the media, but a Court case from a couple of months ago had caught my attention when it was reported.

The accused, X, is someone I know professionally, and the case was sensational for a while due to the high profile of the victim involved.

Although X specializes in a field that is one of the most vulnerable for legal action, I really did not expect the facts of the case in which he's charged, as the charge against him is for an act that is not within his specialisation.

I was stunned by the severity of the offence charged i.e. s.304(b) PC.  The charge itself already looks deterrent enough, let alone whatever that will ensue thereafter, be it a conviction or an acquittal.

Anyway, the initiation of criminal charges is one of the discretionary powers of the AG. As the case involved a high profile victim, thus comes various speculations if the severe nature of the offence charged is due to that.

I feel sorry for the demise of the victim although I do not personally know him or his family... for he's someone's son, someone's spouse and someone's father.

At the same time, I also feel sorry to hear that the charge involves someone professionally-known to me, who's one among the team who had played an active role and done a very good job in helping to save someone dear to me a few years back.

Against logic for good or otherwise?

More than 2 years down the line, I am still unsure if I’m ready to gamble, or "don't care" once again. Sometimes I want more, but sometimes I don't.

Logic tells me that I am crazy to change my mind. However, my instinct tells otherwise, despite the apparent absence of logic. 

A stroll at Taman Tasik Pandan Perdana a day after saying goodbye to Paragard

However, based on past experiences with all other stuff, instinct had always been right compared to logic, despite appearing illogical and even impractical!  Logic vs instinct - which one prevails?

If not for one obvious reason (it's for the sake of A & A, with different reasons for both of them), there is otherwise no reason to change.  Rightfully, I should have been more than contented by now.  But coming from very small family, I have experienced some limitations being an only daughter with only one brother… while childhood was smooth-sailing, adulthood is a little challenging at times with only 2 of us i.e. we’re short-handed when certain matters require care.

Against my logic and uncertainties, sweet-sister-Paragard a.k.a. IUCD of 2 years was finally out.  There’s no looking back, but to embrace whatever that comes, if there is any, or doesn’t come, if there isn't.  

In any event, I have not forgotten that I am not as fortunate as others who generally don’t require major interventions when it comes to carrying a pregnancy to term.  Hence, it further adds on to the need to carefully consider whether it's worth taking another risk.  

In the end, God knows best.  It shouldn’t matter anymore whether there is anymore adik or not.  Let’s allow nature to take place and don't ever put too much expectation on anything in order to avoid disappointment.